tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52231288207329362922024-03-05T07:34:00.894-05:00kirtaniyah sada hariAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.comBlogger183125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-65968464466788831512015-07-24T13:47:00.002-04:002015-07-24T13:54:40.472-04:00the need to be seen<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZQlyjztIA7dMqtN3CJdBX_23ZgTiOOZgwa3yZzlHNPr1Xje9k5XmTJ6yXFdLj0zVmt4UHRG6c4Zq5xFN-_3Hf87EoyFtqCiksVWxK1j0_N70L7dWJwJ7McBtK0kCtLFaiWsYmkkeWkuoq/s1600/1467209_489702507854085_3848895697894654362_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZQlyjztIA7dMqtN3CJdBX_23ZgTiOOZgwa3yZzlHNPr1Xje9k5XmTJ6yXFdLj0zVmt4UHRG6c4Zq5xFN-_3Hf87EoyFtqCiksVWxK1j0_N70L7dWJwJ7McBtK0kCtLFaiWsYmkkeWkuoq/s320/1467209_489702507854085_3848895697894654362_n.jpg" /></a></div>I was scrolling through my Facebook timeline awhile back, half paying attention, when an image came up which read:<br />
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<b><i>Don't know which is worse: To be present and your presence not acknowledged or to be absent and your absence not felt.</b></i><br />
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It caught me off guard and made me stop what I was doing, reflect and pose the question as to which would be worse for me. As a person who thrives on validation, my initial response was immediate - obviously being present and not having my presence acknowledged would be worse. But the longer I thought about it, the more I felt: It's a hard question to answer!<br />
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The first situation addresses the immediate here and now. Being absent and not having your absence felt is much more complicated. It might mean you are aware that your absence wasn't felt or it could also mean that you are unaware or oblivious to the fact. For most, being unaware is easier on the ego (after all, there is some truth to the saying "ignorance is bliss!), but it still doesn't mask the reality that your absence wasn't felt.<br />
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Just think about that for a minute. Simply put, it can be interpreted to mean that if you're not there, you're not missed.<br />
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As living beings, we all have a need to feel connected. Among individuals, that need for connection can vary from needing to feel it at all times, to seeking it out at certain times, in specific situations or with specific individuals. <br />
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Connection implies acknowledgement of our presence. It also gives us a sense of belonging and feeling valued. It is the lack of "being needed" that is at the root of both these scenarios and which can leave one feeling unsettled and uncomfortable.<br />
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<i>It is in these moments that the potential to grow and become truly wise present themselves.</i><br />
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As much as the need to feel valued and needed is a natural one, it is one that will not always be fulfilled. Recognizing and acknowledging that truth is essential to becoming a balanced and mature human being. Although a potentially painful and unpleasant experience, it teaches us that the world doesn't revolve around us. It also offers us great insight into whose eyes we want to feel needed. After all, it's not in all situations where we feel bad if our presence is not acknowledged or our absence not felt - it's specific ones.<br />
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So the next time you find yourself in this situation, take a step back from the hurt and dig a little deeper. What you learn from that exploration will be invaluable in your personal journey of self-discovery.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-23592671198566380892014-10-21T13:37:00.001-04:002014-10-21T13:37:16.287-04:00The effect of good news<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoBL3Nb24BWuOh8SJxjQhjputLnlBtutD85se0otYz_48XOiPrJSIenmOUQW2ICSafDHnVlJoSTjyUJlAdn4gKLUEPLkrwe5DZaTqZQ4VJY0Qy8PGVWcszSX3__iPxbMk1hSBUjgT_XDEb/s1600/2014-10-21_1324.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjoBL3Nb24BWuOh8SJxjQhjputLnlBtutD85se0otYz_48XOiPrJSIenmOUQW2ICSafDHnVlJoSTjyUJlAdn4gKLUEPLkrwe5DZaTqZQ4VJY0Qy8PGVWcszSX3__iPxbMk1hSBUjgT_XDEb/s320/2014-10-21_1324.png" /></a></div>Hearing good news about others affects people in different ways. Personally, the feelings it evokes within me serves as a barometer of how emotionally healthy I am and my relationship with the individual. Feelings of joy and "they totally deserve it" are what I aim for. However, in instances where it dredges up not so pleasant emotions, I realize I have internal work to do. <br />
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Just as pain serves as an indication that something is wrong with the body, similarly, negative emotions can serve as an indicator that we need to pay closer attention to an unfulfilled need or issue. That something can vary from person to person, but it's important to identify it and work to see what is needed to heal it. The importance of this topic was highlighted again by something that recently happened. <br />
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I have been extremely fortunate to be surrounded by practitioners of bhakti yoga my entire life. In order to invoke the blessings and share in the good news that I am to be married soon, my dear parents have been personally inviting well-wishers and friends for the occasion. Today I'd like to share with one reaction that melted my heart.<br />
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Although I wasn't physically present to witness the reaction, my parents later narrated that upon hearing the news and receiving an invitation, one well-wisher, who is an extremely deep and advanced bhakti yoga practitioner, immediately started to inquire as to my parents' assessment of my future husband's character. Satisfied with their responses, he expressed his heart-felt congratulations. That in itself totally melted my heart. An uncle-like figure in my life, I don't often get to see this well-wisher, but his genuine concern and care for my well being was palpable even through my parents voices.<br />
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Not soon after, he came back and immediately pressed a small gift in my father's hand. This was totally above and beyond the realm of anything any of us expected as his sincere well-wishes were all that we were seeking. <br />
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Although this may seem quite simple and ordinary, I assure you, it was anything but. The sense of reciprocation and gratitude to have such an exemplary well-wisher in my life was and is still overwhelming. In fact, while meditating on the incident a few days later, it was all I could do to restrain the tears filling my eyes.<br />
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As an aspiring practitioner of bhakti this is what I too long to be: the happy well-wisher to others, especially in their time of success and joy.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-62701340913324990112013-04-16T15:56:00.000-04:002013-04-16T15:56:21.434-04:00it's time...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQHQ0ZA9i08r0gvTb7_uLdAeiKiaoOm0g1EvvxCA4bKcvb7tn92oXM9EHzgPjmX0tQkSLpGB85yAJh7ZBKobNe7PfB4zHH4m97_-3eW8MZY3JAD2btdTSvTglnqde0iVty_XrzIkgWfBs5/s1600/2013-04-16_1554.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQHQ0ZA9i08r0gvTb7_uLdAeiKiaoOm0g1EvvxCA4bKcvb7tn92oXM9EHzgPjmX0tQkSLpGB85yAJh7ZBKobNe7PfB4zHH4m97_-3eW8MZY3JAD2btdTSvTglnqde0iVty_XrzIkgWfBs5/s320/2013-04-16_1554.png" /></a>Some of you may have noticed that I don't update this blog very often anymore. For those who may not know, it's because I'm fully occupied in my humble endeavour of trying to write on a Gita verse everyday! If you haven't had a chance to check it out yet, please feel free to: http://www.gita-asitis.blogspot.ca/<br />
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Today, however, I write because I am perturbed. I am perturbed by the "news-worthy" events that are constantly unfolding and that are almost always steeped in negativity. At the moment, the one that is fresh in my mind is the tragedy that unfolded in Boston yesterday. What a waste of energy and time to cause such disruptions and spread so much pain.<br />
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The predictions of the <a href="http://vedabase.net/sb/en">Bhagavatam</a> are unfolding in front of our eyes. At such a time, the two words HH Bhakti Tirtha Swami coined keep ringing through my ears "Spiritual Warriors." If there was any time or any push we needed to truly invest and take our spiritual lives seriously - it's now. <br />
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However, it doesn't come cheap. We only have to look at the lives of incredible role models such as Srila Prabhupada and Bhakti Tirtha Swami to know that to become a spiritual warrior isn't something that can just be bought. It takes an investment of time, commitment and spiritual practice (sadhana). <br />
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Those sixteen rounds of the Hare Krsna mantra we chant are our shield. In the battlefield, weapons and strategies are important, but if we do not have a shield to protect us from any weapons that are sent our way, what is the use? The Hare Krsna mantra is our shield in this battlefield of maya where corruption, negativity and hurt are the weapons of choice that are being hurtled at us. Therefore, it is so important to make chanting our utmost priority. Through chanting, we can take shelter and genuinely pray for the welfare of one other. <br />
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Our weapons to combat this battle are those that come from purification of the heart. Those intangibles such as kindness, compassion and realized knowledge come by putting in the time to work on ourselves and cultivating genuine, loving relationships with one another. <br />
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It's time...are you ready to step up to become a spiritual warrior?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-18687584836231681742013-02-10T19:25:00.001-05:002013-02-10T19:31:33.118-05:00why?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMjTdn_Dr7nHKjEaImgydoWGMPMzWZQ3av6LHH-jFNTmCSNl5oufvs5ddX7E4YDqVH1lCkHWRdBLH959KFaaBnWMW9YYFVLzv-0SEkq95FbCIQK8HbqgT36c_6jsP1kVXOkY_DZnTn6-HM/s1600/Screen+Shot+2013-02-10+at+7.15.59+PM.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="400" width="254" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMjTdn_Dr7nHKjEaImgydoWGMPMzWZQ3av6LHH-jFNTmCSNl5oufvs5ddX7E4YDqVH1lCkHWRdBLH959KFaaBnWMW9YYFVLzv-0SEkq95FbCIQK8HbqgT36c_6jsP1kVXOkY_DZnTn6-HM/s400/Screen+Shot+2013-02-10+at+7.15.59+PM.png" /></a></div>As some of you may know, I've taken on the challenge of writing on a verse of the Gita daily (www.gitaasitis.com). That's why I haven't been writing as regularly as I would like to here. That being said, today I wrote some reflections on Chapter 2, Verse 10 of the Bhagavad-gita and thought I'd share it here. <br />
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Verse 2.10: O descendant of Bharata, at that time Kṛṣṇa, smiling, in the midst of both the armies, spoke the following words to the grief-stricken Arjuna.<br />
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On the surface, this verse seems pretty astonishing. Krsna is smiling at Arjuna's grief? What kind of God is this? Someone who takes pleasure in others' suffering?<br />
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Firstly, let's clear one thing up. Krsna is not smiling at Arjuna's grief. Krsna is smiling because his dear friend has now taken shelter of him. He is smiling because Arjuna wants to let go of the material suffering he is experiencing, as a result of identifying with his body, and instead wants to understand what reality is all about. Now that puts things in a whole different perspective, doesn't it? Just like a parent who may smile with compassion and understanding when their child comes to them in a heartbroken state and asks for help, Krsna too is smiling because this dear soul is now turning to him.<br />
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Arjuna is putting all his faith and trust in Krsna, a lesson we can all take inspiration from. Oftentimes, when things don't go the way we want, when we lose loved ones and when we see someone else getting something we think we "deserve", we blame God. C'mon, if you are in any way religious, spiritual or just believe in a higher force or entity, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.<br />
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Our problem is that we have been burned by the material energy so often. Not just in this lifetime but in previous lifetimes. Although we may not remember those previous lifetimes, what we carry with us are the impressions from those lifetimes. Having been hurt, disappointed, misled, and betrayed, it is no wonder that we have such a hard time trusting one another, what to speak of God.<br />
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God doesn't work by "our rules", which by the way are often different for every single living entity. He gives us what we need. And what is that need? Normally it's not the red Porsche, million dollar book deal or perfect relationship. No, often those things will just drive us away from him since we will feel we don't need anything but material temporary pleasures. What we do need is a reminder that our trust and faith should be put in that person who will never let us down - God.<br />
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But we forget this and keep questioning "Why? What did I ever do to deserve this?" Thing is, we cannot remember everything we've done to deserve what we're receiving now, but Krsna does. The law of karma states that for every action, there is an equal reaction. Because we tend to live our lives thinking that nothing comes before or after this lifetime, this truth doesn't often bring solace to the heart. But, if we were to actually remember this, things won't affect us as strongly as they do.<br />
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Krsna only wants us to come back to him. So everything that happens to us, whether good or bad, is actually an opportunity to remember that. Anyone who is aspiring to reconnect with God will go through this. "But why?" we may ask and the answer is actually quite simple. To make us stronger. To deepen our faith.<br />
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Growth only occurs when there is some pressure. Whether it be a weight-lifter, academic or aspiring bhakti yogi, we grow the most in difficult conditions. Not conditions that will break us, but those that will stretch us. God loves us more than we can even fathom, so the next time you pose the question "Why?" remember that. The answer is because we need to grow and he's giving us the opportunity to come closer to him.<br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-30324477850019423592013-01-04T13:36:00.000-05:002013-01-04T13:36:01.837-05:00on fast forward<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5K2JtUdQThZg4iykQyPRD6UKezRYzM9X4lDeZJXSN5yPr9EL15twgFRRfve3x_4B9wblByPBv11AHYqP8pm_3lDVWON05EOqCxVVs0CRTdVuHpDCvMXOhO7bTH2SW2f9p4-6Ahc8KwCoP/s1600/banner.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="182" width="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5K2JtUdQThZg4iykQyPRD6UKezRYzM9X4lDeZJXSN5yPr9EL15twgFRRfve3x_4B9wblByPBv11AHYqP8pm_3lDVWON05EOqCxVVs0CRTdVuHpDCvMXOhO7bTH2SW2f9p4-6Ahc8KwCoP/s400/banner.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Last week as I was sitting down to chant my noon gayatri I realized something. I was trying to chant all the mantras really quickly as though I had some place to get to immediately. Truth was, the only thing I had lined up afterwards was checking my email! So why the need to rush?<br />
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When I analyze my life, I grudgingly realize it's something I do constantly. I fast forward through most of my spiritual practices as though there is some imaginary race that I must win. Even though I know faster isn't better, the challenge in slowing down is having to acknowledge the fact that I may be doing things imperfectly.<br />
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When I used to take singing lessons, the thing that challenged me the most was singing my scales slowly. And I'm not talking about just slowly, I mean <i>excruciatingly</i> slow. That was the time my teacher would always correct me. Over and over and over again would I have to repeat them until I got it right. Although frustrating, I never forgot what she told me. "If you don't get it right when you sing slow, you'll not only sing it wrong when you sing fast, but worse, you won't even notice that you're singing it wrong."<br />
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Similarly, as I hit fast forward in almost everything I do, I'm starting to realize the only person I'm short changing is myself. As aspiring bhakti yogis one of the most importantly lessons to imbibe is that it is the mood and consciousness that matters. When I rush, my consciousness is of stress, not devotion!<br />
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It's a humbling lesson. There's no need to fast forward. It's a good thing to hit pause and re-evaluate and even more important to be satisfied on play. That's the time when I'll grow. <br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-36111142689105223862012-12-25T21:33:00.003-05:002012-12-25T21:35:54.292-05:00my inspiration for today<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPABSRTLXhHleuIX5djgVA9zwBeN92Wf65QArveG-NJtTWjtPLqKO3XjAuY3d-uyFdSWo5epgGxYbDA-5orhOr59rF0rB7l0-hTfQhbeDU17eBXif68bD9sJgeYtcZrhVzpZ1QL5uajI17/s1600/fb-inspire.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="321" width="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPABSRTLXhHleuIX5djgVA9zwBeN92Wf65QArveG-NJtTWjtPLqKO3XjAuY3d-uyFdSWo5epgGxYbDA-5orhOr59rF0rB7l0-hTfQhbeDU17eBXif68bD9sJgeYtcZrhVzpZ1QL5uajI17/s400/fb-inspire.jpg" /></a></div><br />
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson<br />
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I remember the way I felt the first time I heard this, "Wow, that's totally applicable to me and everyone I know!" Years later, I've realized it's not only beautiful and inspirational but more importantly, it's a call to action for all of us. Krsna has given all of us unique abilities and talents and it is our service to culture, nourish them and offer it back in His service. om tat sat. :DAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-17297862663617058572012-12-23T18:45:00.000-05:002012-12-23T19:56:27.226-05:00in honour of gita jayanti: a new blog<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiV1no8hGiPRIkgae1FVn6-viad5IA56-kmyGdtBUiNjrHVWAwqaSnQakemGYhoTvGJHjhPWlkvE8_3nXHJSfuhpwa_1dHF7wQLLwx3pJyQeJtwyboCKdrYo01B6SzRBsMjK07SMt5658U0/s1600/bg.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="355" width="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiV1no8hGiPRIkgae1FVn6-viad5IA56-kmyGdtBUiNjrHVWAwqaSnQakemGYhoTvGJHjhPWlkvE8_3nXHJSfuhpwa_1dHF7wQLLwx3pJyQeJtwyboCKdrYo01B6SzRBsMjK07SMt5658U0/s400/bg.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Today, Sunday December 23, 2012 marks Gita Jayanti- the anniversary of when the Bhagavad gita was spoken over 5000 years ago on the sacred grounds of Kurukshetra. <br />
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The Bhagavad gita - as it is, is one of my favourite books. In fact, I often comment that it's "my hand book for life". If I have a question, a problem, am frustrated or am in need of some inspiration, the Gita is always there for me. I never need to worry that it's too busy or doesn't have time for me. In short, the Gita never lets me down. <br />
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I wanted to do something to commemorate this significant day and so for the first time in my life I consecutively read all 700+ verses - in English. I've recited all the sanskirt verses before and it was a wonderful experience. However, since my understanding of sanskrit is minimal at best, I could only appreciate the beautiful sound vibration of the mantras and not the essence it contained within them. <br />
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That's why I challenged myself to read the English translation of all 700+ verses. At some point in time between Chapter 5 and Chapter 6 an idea came to me. Well...it was more like a challenge: <b>write something about every single verse in the Gita</b>. A verse a day on the importance of the topic discussed, the way it makes me feel reading it or perhaps even a question that comes to mind. <br />
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And so here I am at the start. Today marks the beginning of diving into THE greatest yoga text. I invite you to join me... <a href="http://gita-asitis.blogspot.com">www.gita-asitis.blogspot.com</a><br />
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-281843172343832272012-12-09T10:48:00.001-05:002012-12-09T10:48:15.561-05:00At Every MomentIn an age where the expectation is instant, whether it be in attaining gratification, results or service, it's no wonder that the path of Bhakti may seem difficult for some. And when I say some, I mean me!<br />
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This type of inculcation by modern society results in the mind becoming weak and susceptible to the notion that surrender to Krsna is next to impossible. Why? Because surrender is an active process that requires strength, faith in Krsna and most of all the realization that it is not a one time deal. Surrender to Krsna is something we must practice at every moment.<br />
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I remember when I first heard this. It instantly sat right with me. But then as time went on and the actual work needed to get started, I wasn't so keen anymore. Surrendering at every moment starts with becoming more conscious of Krsna. Specifically it means being able to see the Krsna conscious perspective of a situation and learning to let go of what "I think is right" and seeing through the eyes of sastra (i.e. seeing through the lens of what Krsna and his authorized representatives have told us).<br />
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Surrender is also difficult because it involves our free will, which is something some of us are not very good at utilizing. Normally we use our free will to protect the ego and defend our actions. Surrendering at every moment means we now have to choose between what's best according to Krsna, guru, sadhu and sastra and choosing to act according to what our mind thinks is best (which is normally the easy and "instant" way out). <br />
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Old habits are hard to overcome. After lifetimes of choosing "my" way, is it any surprise that we now grapple with utilizing our free will properly? But as I often have to tell my mind, it's not an excuse to give up. Like anything, this struggle can only help us become stronger if in conjunction we are practicing a strong regimen of chanting, serving the devotees and eating food offered with love to Krsna.<br />
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It's like lifting weights. I remember when I first started a year ago; it was embarrassing how weak I was! But when I made a commitment to go regularly, eat better and rest properly, I was surprised to see that I was making progress. In fact, the time soon came where I felt the need to increase the weight since it was getting easy. <br />
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I'm no expert on surrender, in fact I'm probably in the pre-school class, but it only makes sense that the proper diet and lifestyle change would need to be accompanied in the "Surrender program".<br />
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We always need a challenge, whether we realize it or not. So what better way to challenge oneself than increase the frequency by which we surrender to Krsna! Krsna says He helps those who help themselves, so what are we waiting for? Let's go grab that help!<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-25943482299705258852012-09-11T18:10:00.002-04:002012-09-11T18:12:47.478-04:00Defence strategiesLast week pretty much anything that could irritate or annoy me became irresistibly attracted me. <br />
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Whether it be a person who had just finished smoking sitting next to me on the bus (when there were clearly other available seats) to my least favourite exercise instructor (who thinks screeching is a form of encouragement) subbing in for my favourite one- the list goes on and on. <br />
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It was tough. Nothing drives me crazier than feeling like something is out of my control (I know, I know- welcome to the material world!) But it was more than that. <br />
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Normally I try not to let the small things get to me, but I really felt like I was being ganged up on! It wasn't just an isolated incident here or there. Oh no. It felt like everything was happening just to purposely annoy me.<br />
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As I sat and silently fumed throughout my various experiences, I also sought for a deeper explanation. It suddenly hit me. I try so hard to avoid getting into situations that cause me to react in a negative way that when the inevitable happens, I'm forced to realize that I spend a lot of my time defending. In fact I think I spend more time defending than I do eating.<br />
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What is it that I'm defending? Well, for lack of a better term- "my mental sanity". In fact, I'm pretty expert at strategizing game plans in order to avoid having to deal with an irritated mind. It was a powerful realization. We often hear that there's more to human life than "eating, sleeping, mating and defending". The first three are pretty self-evident but I've always wondered about the "defending" aspect. <br />
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Well wonder no more. After last week's experiences I realize I'm a defender. But, just like with everything, there is no perfect defence strategy and part of being a spiritual warrior (which I can only hope of aspiring to become one day) is also realizing what is the best defence. <br />
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The best defence is to realize my defence strategies are full of flaws! LOL! I'm no match against Krsna's energies, especially when He wants to teach me something. <br />
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And so toward the end of the week, instead of <i>just</i> mentally flipping out, I caught my self taking some deep breathes. It's OK. Everything is happening for a reason. So there is some irritation...it's ok. It's an experience. <br />
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After all experiences are not about whether they are good, bad or just plain irritating, but what you get out of them.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-55823373806722719972012-07-21T12:27:00.000-04:002012-07-21T12:29:28.286-04:00Toronto Tunnel Ecstasy!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9wwcrheiuiDQ45MN5gtGdo-jxB4QJuelQwMNaxDRsAkEXr9Lgf-FfaRJRJGiYiEKltyExAwjFKItGY0LgfJBf1g6kh7UsdPRusWsTUj8P8W00Um63Hb0_mbKBgQFlipjOZ6A2aLM0jFlN/s1600/DSC_0389.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="265" width="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9wwcrheiuiDQ45MN5gtGdo-jxB4QJuelQwMNaxDRsAkEXr9Lgf-FfaRJRJGiYiEKltyExAwjFKItGY0LgfJBf1g6kh7UsdPRusWsTUj8P8W00Um63Hb0_mbKBgQFlipjOZ6A2aLM0jFlN/s400/DSC_0389.JPG" /></a></div><br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-41671549806201191462012-07-04T20:53:00.004-04:002012-07-04T20:58:51.306-04:00Gita Nagari IlluminationsThis past weekend I had the incredible opportunity to attend a retreat in Gita Nagari. Aptly named "Jewels of Gaura lila" it was approximately 3 days filled with exuberant kirtans, heart-melting talks and beautiful devotees thirstily engaging in blissful sanga. And what better way to kick-start the festivities than by being witness to over 40 devotees receiving initiation! Just beautiful.<br />
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I myself haven't been to Gita Nagari in over 20 years. Although I don't remember much from my childhood visit, it felt like I was returning home. The beautiful breezes, the gentle cows, a dirt road to meander on, and stunning fireflies illuminating the pitch black nights. Of course nestled in this oasis are Their most glorious Lordships Sri Sri Radha Damodara.<br />
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Being there reminded me of being back in Mayapur. A simple life that consists of hearing, chanting, feasting and devotee association. That's it. No extra comforts or unnecessary technology. No phone calls, Skype video calls or texts to <i>try</i> to schedule some time to catch up with a friend. Instead you got to see everyone face to face. How refreshing!<br />
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I realize that it's only when everything is stripped away and I'm left with the bare minimum that finally I get a glimpse into what's really important and essential. In such an environment, the mind quietens down. Well...at least in my case, it started to quieten down! As soon as we started to enter Buffalo on the way back, along came all the crazy thoughts that had been kept at bay. <br />
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It really goes to show how sensitive we all are to our environments. In fact just today I was looking for quiet place to chant that was out of the house, yet out of the sun. By no means an easy feat! I finally happened upon a flat boulder located on a quiet path. As I settled myself in and enjoyed the respite provided by the shade and cool winds, I noticed the large trees located directly in front of me. As the breeze blew through, each and every leaf readily swayed. It's not as though one leaf was thinking "Well I don't feel like blowing that way so I'm going to try with all my might to just stay still!" Instead all of them blew in harmony.<br />
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It made me realize how much I have to learn from these trees! Instead of adjusting and moving in tandem with Krsna's plan, I tend to fight it. In fact, that was one of the jewels I took home with me from Gita Nagari- doubting Krsna wants the absolute best for me and thinking "I'm right" causes me to become my own obstacle in bhakti. Just like the trees who surrender to the breezes, it's actually easier to just go along with Krsna's plan. <br />
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But how? That's always my question. Well...I had a slightly bewildering realization this weekend. I actually knew the answer the whole time. :S It's specifically through reading that we can get rid of these doubts and crazy ideas the mind comes up with to not trust Krsna. Reading Srimad Bhagavatam and Bhagavad-gita actually acts as a soothing balm to calm the ridiculous mind. That same mind that is forever speculating and causing trouble instead becomes chastened by the weight of Vedic knowledge. <br />
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So the eternal quest continues...to become like the leaves of the humble leaves and not just willingly, but happily, sway to the expert tune of Krsna's melody He has for each and every one of us.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-1336629045270986932012-06-23T17:46:00.003-04:002012-06-23T17:46:40.462-04:00Utilizing our talents...Have you ever felt like you had certain gifts to offer the world, but something was holding you back? If so, you're in good company.<br />
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For a few years now I've been feeling that way. In many ways I feel that Krsna has blessed me with different talents, to the extent that it makes me feel confused. In fact, I often look at those who have one specific talent that they are exceptional at doing and think, "I wish I was like that." Why? Simply because it seems like they have it easier; key word of course being "seems". <br />
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For those who are exceptionally gifted in one sphere or arena and genuinely love it, their path appears, at least to me, clear. Their direction is set if they choose to follow it and so their purpose in life (in terms of sharing Krsna's blessings upon them) is clearly outlined. <br />
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However for those who maybe able to do many things, sometimes the waters may seem more murky. "What should I focus on? Kirtan, writing, speaking, photography? Some of these things? All of these things? Should it be one at a time or simultaneously?" To the extent that these questions can just leave one staying on the mental platform without doing anything. Why do I say this- because I speak from experience!<br />
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Recently I've figured out how I would like to utilize whatever little talents Krsna has given me in a meaningful way but in the process have realized enthusiasm is not enough. It'll have to be a combination of hard work, determination, discipline, a LOT of prayer, guidance and ultimately the unshakeable convocation that it's the right thing. <br />
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I think that's what separates those who succeed from those who don't. The ability to remain unaffected when criticism, thinly veiled negativity or even worse, a lack of interest/enthusiasm is exhibited by others towards your venture. <br />
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And so I am trying to actively do something and get out of my head. In speaking with a well-wishing friend, they referred to my desire to contribute as an offering. What a beautiful thought. Instead of saying, "this is what I want to give to the world," my mind-set has changed to "this is what I want to offer to the world." Just that slight change in word helps me to remember that I just want to be a worthy receptacle that Krsna can use in service. Furthermore it reminds me that an offering implies another accepting out of free will whereas giving can result in "I'm giving so you must take" attitude.<br />
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So I pray. I pray to all of you, my readers. Please bless me to have single-pointed determination, discipline, guidance and the rock-solid conviction that I am doing the right thing.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-82809041718844408052012-06-13T18:59:00.002-04:002012-06-13T19:02:19.750-04:00A road less travelledAlmost everyday I take myself out on a walk in my neighbourhood. Beads in hand and Krsna's name on my lips, I wander about the various streets, paths and parks that make up the area I live in.<br />
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One afternoon last summer I was pondering a saying that I had heard (and I paraphrase): The same thoughts running around the hamster wheel of our mind, results in the inability to change. That thought fresh in my head, I made a promise to myself that sunny afternoon. Whenever I go out for a walk, I will find a new route to take. Challenge in mind I started my walks.<br />
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It was about a week and a half later that I started to get a bit worried. "There are only so many ways that you can walk around your neighbourhood, it's just not possible to come up with new and unique routes," said my mind. I started to think that it was true and that this exercise was nice but not very practical. Upon commencing my walk that day I suddenly realized something - I always walked in the same direction. I was so habituated that my feet would just lead me in the same direction! It was only now, when I was consciously trying to seek out new walking paths that I realized this.<br />
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It's been a simple yet valuable lesson. I've come to notice that I get habituated to a certain way of thinking or feeling. It's just become my default setting, so to speak and I don't really realize it. Similarly, as numerous thoughts flow through our mind, it's not often that we consciously choose to think of certain things and so the same recycled ideas keep floating around. And then I wonder why I can't change certain habits! It seems silly when I think about it now.<br />
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It's been over a year since I took up this challenge and would you believe that I still unconsciously follow this challenge? Everyday when I go for my walk I now naturally pick different routes, change directions and even walk off the beaten path and wander into the grass just to prove to myself that there are indeed innumerable walking paths that I can create even within a limited environment. Truthfully speaking, that's the real lesson I've learned- it's only as limited as I make it and as I venture beyond my "usual" boundaries that I impose on myself, my eyes become open to the numerous possibilities. <br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-52953116584196812712012-05-31T13:01:00.003-04:002012-05-31T13:02:52.217-04:00Facebook Validation, Anyone?I don't go on cnn.com very often, but two days when I was randomly glancing at various articles on the website, one caught my attention. It was an opinion piece titled "Facebook threatens to 'Zuck up' the human race."<br />
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It began by speaking a little bit about Facebook's IPO (yawn), but then it got interesting. The article quoted a Professor who said, "There's a "shift" from an analog world in which our identities are generated from within, to a digital world in which our sense of self is intimately tied to our social media presence." That's a lot of big words, but essentially it boils down to this: we have stopped looking within to discover who we are and instead are dependent on external sources of validation (i.e. number of likes, friends or posts). Instead of being true to our own ideals and own sense of self, this constant need for validation is fuelled by social media such as Facebook.<br />
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Now, I think most of us need this validation to varying extents, with or without Facebook. Memories of high school anyone? My parents never fail to remind me how much money they spent on me (until I got my own job!) so that I could wear the right clothes from the right stores. But before, that was where it ended. What you wore, who you hung out with, what car you drove...it was the external packaging that mattered. Now, it's all that and how much influence you have in the world of social media.<br />
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Now, I must admit that I am a Facebook user and I too have succumbed to the infatuation from time to time. Ever put up a status post and then check back every so often to see how many likes/comments you've gotten? Then you too have been bitten by the bug of needing social media validation. That being said, like everything in the material world, social media is also ensconced in duality. These negative effects can be argued against the positive of being able to reach so many people in pursuits of sharing bhakti yoga. But like everything, it's all about balance.<br />
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I found my balance awhile back when I noticed something. The more time I spend on Facebook, the less satisfied I feel. It's true. It causes me to compare myself against others which makes absolutely no sense. I am an individual soul that has certain things that are to come to me and to learn in this lifetime. Comparing myself to others is like regressing back to high school where looks mattered and nothing else. <br />
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Bhakti teaches us that happiness is found within and has nothing to do with the externals. It has to do with simplicity. The simplicity to realize that "Hey, I'm a tiny spirit soul that needs Krsna to do everything! I am in this particular dress for now, but it would be wise if I don't get too attached to it." So if Facebook can somehow remind us of that, it's a useful tool. But beware! It's easy to get lost in the world of likes, comments and Timeline.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-14673874328668218382012-05-28T20:11:00.000-04:002012-05-28T20:14:43.143-04:00My Trusted Travel Companion<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzfXgS0fmKM_TW0sgVzgnA5z9nNyY93TSgtHI-6WkW5UgwVNvR_WYrFHiX2wJQgP5OVDkWQnhOTZb9t60jxJ-RmebEFAB5uO7whsXh-KEDA1BKSaJCtXDZfQRy1UvP3NPdq9csQVnz8BCR/s1600/DSC_0949.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="266" width="400" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzfXgS0fmKM_TW0sgVzgnA5z9nNyY93TSgtHI-6WkW5UgwVNvR_WYrFHiX2wJQgP5OVDkWQnhOTZb9t60jxJ-RmebEFAB5uO7whsXh-KEDA1BKSaJCtXDZfQRy1UvP3NPdq9csQVnz8BCR/s400/DSC_0949.JPG" /></a></div><br />
As most people who know me well will tell you, I tend to travel. A lot. <br />
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My love of travel was developed at a young age. Growing up I remember travelling at least once a year if not more. I still recall my first travel by air "by myself" at the age of around 14. Hitting my early twenties the travel fever hit me full force landing my in amazing places like Belgium, Croatia, England, Germany, India etc etc...<br />
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Nowadays whether its travelling by air, the local bus, in a car or by my own two feet, I have one steady travel companion. This travel companion is the perfect friend. They never complain when I toss them unceremoniously into a bag at the last minute or when they are jolted around in the bumps and turns that accompany travel. They are always there, patiently waiting for me to pay some attention to them. Never demanding but always ready. <br />
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They are my japa beads. Rarely do I leave the house without them. They accompany almost everywhere I go whether it be to work, a walk or a four month trip to India. <br />
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Without them by my side it feels strangely unsettling. It doesn't mean that I always turn to them and engage in any active conversation, it just means that they are with me. One of those rare friends that does not expect anything but is faithfully around. In travel there are so many unexpected surprises, I'm so grateful to have a trusted friend I can always rely on.<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-40501592715389697412012-03-07T20:09:00.004-05:002012-05-28T20:13:47.764-04:00Like a Blade of Grass<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5E7WtwK-np8nfaXVUtJ3S6XdFD65hTzuWcO8qny5TFI2eiYyCvR-xWRS0xLklDkhtQl5ZuaJ3u7HedVJ1vTLapeq6AP9-NEeQ9WwBHwfNqv1WB5YGGHG7jDb2M9XT7qGM18UZD-aOjqfv/s1600/grass.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5E7WtwK-np8nfaXVUtJ3S6XdFD65hTzuWcO8qny5TFI2eiYyCvR-xWRS0xLklDkhtQl5ZuaJ3u7HedVJ1vTLapeq6AP9-NEeQ9WwBHwfNqv1WB5YGGHG7jDb2M9XT7qGM18UZD-aOjqfv/s400/grass.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5717334097383253298" /></a><br />I keep getting opportunities to experience "feeling humble like a blade of grass" and 99.9% of the time I blow it! My false ego always gets in the way and the humbling experience is lost. In its place I experience frustration, hurt, outrage or numerous other emotions.<br /><br />But today something happened. I encountered a situation where I just handled everything badly. You know one of those situations where everything you say just comes out wrong and your good intentions are just not conveyed? Yup...it was one of those. Normally in these situations, I <span style="font-style:italic;">naturally</span> take my own side by thinking, "It's not my fault. I was misunderstood." As I was about to begin that journey in trying to make myself feel better and shift blame, I felt something change. It was like suddenly seeing another path I never noticed before and something inside said, "How about being like that blade of grass?"<br /><br />The grass never complains. It just remains in its constitutional position of being a blade of grass. So I asked myself, "How about it? How about using this situation as an opportunity to experience your own constitutional position of being a small spiritual part and parcel." Instead of getting huffy and trying to protect my ego, why not just let it go. It's ok. I can instead learn from this experience. And that's just it- in order to learn, one needs to be humble. I'll never learn if I simply assign blame. And besides, where is that going to get me at this moment? Maybe some temporary satisfaction, but it's not going to help in the long run. <br /><br />Certainly this being the eve of the most munificent appearance day of Lord Caitanya, I can only understand this to be his causeless mercy. I'm certainly not realized enough to act like this EVER! Just goes to show, mercy can appear in all sorts of shapes and form. Today it appeared in the form of a dose of humility. But the most amazing thing is that it was revealed and experienced due to Lord Caitanya.<br /><br />All glories to Sri Sacinandana whose beautiful smile and magnanimity is unlimited! Wishing everyone a most auspicious and joyous Gaura Purnima filled with kirtan and lots of mercy!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-36942221554170292582012-03-04T09:49:00.004-05:002012-03-04T11:04:59.465-05:00Now and LaterFrustration. That's what I think of when it comes to my mind. Having lived with mine for several decades, it still gets the better of me. Over and over I have succumbed to its desires. What can only be described as the pitiful cries of my intelligence become continuously swallowed by the blaring horns of the mind which screams only two words- now and later.<br /><br />Sad to say but those two words, in the hands of my mind, lead to my downfall almost every time. So surreptitiously does the mind know how and when to use them. "Oh come on. If you don't eat this <span style="font-style:italic;">now</span> then you may never get a chance again." Ever hear that running through your head just before you reach for that extra slice of pizza or helping of shrikand? Your intelligence is fighting to get a word in edgewise but the savoury scents and cajoling of that voice in your head prompt you to ignore all caution. It's all about the now and besides, it's prasadam, right? And so you convince yourself until the next morning when you hit the snooze so many times that you barely have time to make it to the bus and that fantastic plan you had yesterday of completing at least half your rounds before work is shattered to pieces. It's back to chanting rounds in the evening after a long, exhausting day when all you really want to do is just sleep.<br /><br />If the "now" ploy doesn't work, no worries for my mind since it has the "later" arsenal at its disposal. "It's the weekend, relax. You can chant your rounds<span style="font-style:italic;"> later</span>. You work so hard all week, it's ok." As I'm writing this, I'm shaking my head. How pathetic. I crumble at the mere words <span style="font-style:italic;">now</span> and <span style="font-style:italic;">later</span>. There's really not much else to it. This is the reason regulation in one's life is so important. I think back to the times when I was much more regulated and notice the one thing that was different- the placement of these words.<br /><br />It was about "Chanting your rounds <span style="font-style:italic;">now </span>and putting everything else off until <span style="font-style:italic;">later</span>." Amazing isn't it, what a change in placement can do. Now and later, although powerful when put to selfish use, can actually help to put what is important in perspective.<br /><br />This is what I LOVE about writing. Typing away a few thoughts can turn into illuminating realizations. Now and later which I earlier said were hinderances in the hands of my mind serve as a metaphor to remind me that everything is not black and white. It's not about simply eradicating something that seems negative but instead putting it in its proper place. That's the true art of bhakti.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-20602983784716890022012-02-02T18:27:00.001-05:002012-02-02T18:51:43.032-05:00In Honour Of...Yesterday I heard the shocking news that three devotees passed away. I was left feeling hollow, especially upon hearing that one of the devotees is the husband of a friend who constantly inspires me with her devotion and dedication to deity worship. <br /><br />As the day crawled by, my thoughts were mixed. Although I did not have the great fortune of knowing these three devotees, it became resoundingly obvious how much they were loved and how much they loved to serve. It made me reflect- one could argue that these three devotees had achieved the perfection of life. They had touched the lives of so many people around the world by giving them Krsna in different forms.<br /><br />We do not consider the perfection of life to be measured by money, followers or power. Although alluring to many, they are vacant and useless substitutes when compared to love for Krsna and the devotees as well as the desire to share Krsna with others. That is what will remain a lasting legacy and that is ultimately what touches the souls of others. It's becoming more and more apparent that this is the great wealth that these devotees have inherited.<br /><br />I'm sure that we all, in this huge vaisnava family of ours, have been touched by the lives of these devotees, whether it be direct or indirect. Our hearts and prayers are with the family and loved ones of these devotees, knowing full well that they have simply moved on to continue to render more and more service to Srila Prabhupada and Lord Caitanya.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-38542301292229602012011-12-30T09:33:00.000-05:002011-12-30T10:01:29.299-05:00A New Year, an old resolution...I've taken to people watching a lot these days. Just plop yourself in an area and just sit and look. It's amazing what you will see. People are fighting, smiling, conversing, hurting, shopping, crying, laughing, thinking... As I witness this, I often wonder about their lives. Some seem as though they "have it all". I've often noticed with myself that if I'm not careful, it's easy to get sucked into the polished veneer many present to the external world.<br /><br />It's easy to compare and think, "Wow everyone seems happier than I am" but fortunately, as I'm getting older and getting to know many on a much deeper level, that illusion is steadily starting to crumble. It serves as a constant reminder to me that the western conception of satisfaction/happiness is something that happens at you, but that's not accurate. Satisfaction is actually an austerity that one has to practice as explained in the Bhagavad-gita.<br /><br />It's so easy to put the blame on "the universe", Krsna or anybody else who gets in the way of our desires. But the only person we should hold accountable for our satisfaction, or more likely, lack thereof, is ourselves. Truth be told, that never sits right with me! LOL! I know it's the truth, but it doesn't and if I reflect I can only come to the conclusion it's because I don't want to take responsibility of my satisfaction. As almost everything else, it's so easy to put the blame or obligation on someone else.<br /><br />So what to do if you're like me? Someone who knows that they are responsible for their own satisfaction but still finds it difficult to take full responsibility for it. The only conclusion I've come to is to associate with those who actually take responsibility for their satisfaction. You'll notice that those who do, spend much more time trying to help others by giving them Krsna who ultimately is the only person who can fill that Krsna sized hole in our hearts. Furthermore, they are grateful and positive. They don't focus on what went wrong or who supposedly caused them pain, but instead practically live the words Lord Brahma once spoke:<br /><br />tat te 'nukampāḿ su-samīkṣamāṇo<br />bhuñjāna evātma-kṛtaḿ vipākam<br />hṛd-vāg-vapurbhir vidadhan namas te<br />jīveta yo mukti-pade sa dāya-bhāk<br /><br />My dear Lord, one who earnestly waits for You to bestow Your causeless mercy upon him, all the while patiently suffering the reactions of his past misdeeds and offering You respectful obeisances with his heart, words and body, is surely eligible for liberation, for it has become his rightful claim. SB. 10.14.8<br /><br />It's December 30, 2011. As many prepare for tomorrow night's festivities or a quiet night in to ring in 2012, I'm revisiting an old resolution. I'd like to take responsibility for my own satisfaction and stop waiting for it to just "come to me." I pray that in 2012 I may develop the proper consciousness to serve the vaisnavas.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-74302991875272150122011-11-04T08:33:00.000-04:002011-11-04T08:35:04.810-04:00Patience and EnthusiasmI’ve often been told that I’m extremely enthusiastic. Truth be told, at times I’ve wondered if that was a compliment or a backhanded way of saying something else!<br /><br />In our Vaisnava tradition enthusiasm is one of the cornerstones that our bhakti journey should rest upon. I’ve always found it quizzical when the inevitable question comes up “How does one become enthusiastic?” There are several responses I’ve heard over the years but the one that always stands out is “Associate with those who are enthusiastic.”<br /><br />Being enthusiastic, however, is not so difficult. One naturally becomes enthusiastic about something that motivates them, inspires them or enlivens them. I would argue that maintaining enthusiasm in our day to day sadhana and services is what is more challenging. It’s easy to feel enthusiastic for a second, an hour, a day or perhaps even a week. But we, in the line of the great Vaisnava acaryas, aspire for more. We aspire for lifetime upon lifetime of consistent and ever increasing enthusiasm to not only serve Krsna but to serve the Vaisnavas. <br /><br />In a lecture I was recently listening to, the dual workings of patience and enthusiasm was highlighted and as the proverbial saying goes a light bulb finally went on in my head. I’ve often found it almost contradictory that both of these qualities are extremely important in the cultivation of bhakti. In my experience, being enthusiastic often results in me wanting something <span style="font-style:italic;">right now</span>, whereas patience requires just that- patience which is something that I firmly believe Krsna has on his priority list for me to acquire right along with humility!<br /><br />However, as was explained in the lecture, having one without the other can lead to a recipe for disaster. If one is simply patient and waits and waits and waits without investing any action, nothing will come of it. Conversely, if one is extremely enthusiastic and is not patient then if the results of one’s endeavor do not come immediately, one may become disheartened and give up altogether.<br /><br />It is often proclaimed “Work as though everything depends upon you and pray knowing everything is dependent upon God (Krsna).” In that one sentence one can find patience and enthusiasm as the underlying seeds which need to be planted in order for the flower of Krsna bhakti to blossom. In fact, it will lead us to the coveted goal we should all aspire towards- steadiness in service, in sadhana and in our consciousness of Krsna at all times.<br /><br />So the next time you feel yourself getting extremely enthusiastic or feel as though Krsna may be testing you by making you wait for something, remember that it’s not <span style="font-style:italic;">just</span> patience or <span style="font-style:italic;">just</span> enthusiasm that are required to advance. It’s both.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-15957763896052073682011-08-26T00:26:00.000-04:002011-08-26T00:30:06.908-04:00Knowledge vs. RealizationJnana is defined as knowledge and Vijnana as realized knowledge. It's the difference between intellectually knowing that we are not this body and actually acting on the platform of "I am not this body." Tonight I was speaking to a very senior mentor of mine and in answer to a question he simply said, "You are on the mental platform." Agreed. I'm pretty sure I'm one of those people who is always on the mental platform! But it got me thinking- then where is the stepping stone between jnana and vijnana? As I began reading some excerpts from Srila Prabhupada's letters to various disciples, I felt I received an instantaneous answer:
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<br />"Keep on with the practice of writing articles; in the midst of your heavy duties go on writing something glorifying the Lord and put our philosophy into words. Writing articles means to express oneself how he is understanding the whole philosophy. So this writing is necessary for everyone." Letter to Giriraj, August 12, 1971.
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<br />In between the little knowledge that is in my head and (one day) the grace of Krsna actually giving me complete realization of that knowledge, is the stepping stone of understanding. We can understand knowledge to different levels but it may not still be completely manifested in our hearts.
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<br />Krsna is so merciful. He is always giving hope! Even if something hasn't fully become realized in our hearts, the process of Krsna Consciousness is so powerful that 1. Krsna in one second can give full realization if he wants to and 2. if we sincerely and seriously practice this precious gift of Krsna consciousness, our understanding will mature and one day bloom into the juicy fruit of realization.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-43069560239400404872011-08-23T22:54:00.001-04:002011-08-23T23:21:48.263-04:00A Meager OfferingDearest Srila Prabhupada,
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<br />Please accept my humble obeisances in the dust of your lotus feet.
<br />All glories to your divine appearance!
<br />All glories to your causeless mercy!
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<br />It's 10:54pm on the most auspicious occasion of your appearance and I am still in the process of composing what will probably remain an inadequate offering. My problem lies in the fact that it is impossible to express my gratitude in words and even harder to choose amongst your unlimited good qualities!
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<br />I was trying so hard to eloquently compose something beautiful when now, at this late hour, I am realizing I can only hope to convey what is in my heart. Srila Prabhupada, this summer, what to speak of this past year, has been so interesting. So many lessons, so many opportunities, so many challenges and most importantly so much mercy to absorb.
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<br />Amongst all that, one theme keeps coming up- unwavering determination and faith. Determination to serve for the sake of service without any preference or expectation for recognition. Determination to always behave like a vaisnava, which is actually extremely difficult for uncultured individuals such as myself. Determination to do one's duty and carry out the orders of the spiritual master without any expectation for the outcome of the results. And most importantly, faith that Krsna always knows what's best and to put full trust in Him.
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<br />You, my dear Srila Prabhupada, exemplify all this. You personify what Krsna speaks to Arjuna in the Bhagavad-gita:
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<br /><span style="font-style:italic;">vyavasāyātmikā buddhir
<br />ekeha kuru-nandana
<br />bahu-śākhā hy anantāś ca
<br />buddhayo 'vyavasāyinām</span>
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<br />Those who are on this path are resolute in purpose, and their aim is one. O beloved child of the Kurus, the intelligence of those who are irresolute is many-branched. Bg. 2.41
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<br />In the translation, you give us a beautiful definition of what <span style="font-style:italic;">vyavasāyātmikā</span> means- resolute in Krsna consciousness. You personify this. Your resoluteness in Krsna consciousness is the reason why we are all here today. You faced what seemed to be countless insurmountable challenges, but you never wavered. You took so much shelter in the instructions of your spiritual master HDG Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Goswami. In fact, you always said "My spiritual master is always with me."
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<br />Such faith and determination does not come cheaply. It is a result of great realization, trust and surrender. It is no doubt that you are a pure devotee who is so dear to Krsna and yet you came to the material world, undergoing all types of trials and tribulations just to save ungrateful individuals like myself who have no idea, even after so many years, what it actually means to be Krsna conscious.
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<br />My dear Srila Prabhupada, on this day of your glorious appearance, please first of all forgive me for procrastinating and only writing this offering at the last minute! Secondly, please give me that determination and faith you had in your spiritual master so that I too can follow in your footsteps and the footsteps of those who follow you. Please allow me to see every challenge or obstacle as a gift and allow me to feel gratitude and imbibe the lessons that Krsna is trying to teach me. Please allow me to have complete trust and faith in the Holy names of Krsna. I long for the day when I can say with full confidence and realization that everything is in Krsna's holy names.
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<br />Your aspiring servant and granddaughter,
<br />Vrndavana Vinodini dasi
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-39785931389443371252011-08-21T03:10:00.000-04:002011-08-21T03:59:46.976-04:00We Get What We Can HandleWe've all heard the saying that "God only gives us what we can handle." I'm sure most would probably agree that sometimes we've felt, "I can't handle this. I don't know how true that statement is!" Of course whether we realize it soon after, or even in this lifetime, it's true. Krsna only does give us what we can handle whether it be in the form of glory, frustration, happiness or challenges.
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<br />I was speaking about this with a dear friend yesterday and we got to unpacking this statement. What does it actually mean? As she spoke about the lives of pure devotees and the tests that they face, a realization sprung up. Perhaps only giving us what we can handle doesn't only apply in the sense of our physical or emotional capacity, what if we looked at it from the perspective of learning lessons?
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<br />Personally, I have always looked at "Krsna's giving me what I can handle" from the viewpoint of strength- "Can I deal with this?" It's a valid perspective, especially when one is caught up in the moment.
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<br />However, when we look at the lives of those advanced bhakti yogis and yoginis, that's not their primary focus. Of course, that's not to say that we should imitate them artificially, but we can learn from them. I was recently reading HH Radhanth Swami's book "The Journey Home" over again and upon this second reading I was struck by the wonderful outlook Radhanath Swami takes. Never does Maharaja complain asking "Why is this happening to me?" Instead, Maharaja is always looking to understand how each circumstance is moulding him in his quest of self-discovery and finding the Absolute Truth.
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<br />Srila Prabhupada said during a conversation that took place in Teheran on August 11, 1976, "But before coming to the post of recognized devotee, Krsna tests very severely. That one has to pass." When we examine the lives of recognized devotees like Prahalad Maharaja we can unequivocally see it's not just because "They can handle it," it's because they know what to do with the tests- every test was an opportunity to turn to Krsna.
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<br />It's the same principle we hear in scripture of how the spiritual teacher will only chastise those who can accept it because for others that same chastisement may only serve to weaken or destroy their faith in Krsna. That acceptance may include learning we have certain anarthas and having to work on it, being corrected in our behaviour or even being properly trained in devotional service. As we imbibe this guidance we should always see it in context with our ultimate goal: to become staunch servants of the devotees and Krsna.
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<br />We are just like diamonds. The formation of natural diamonds requires very high temperatures and pressure, conditions I'm sure we've all experienced before! But, if we remain patient, like the diamond, we to will become something of great beauty and value that can be offered to Krsna.
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-2407081258411260362011-08-16T18:51:00.000-04:002011-08-16T19:13:37.948-04:00Opportunities and SurrenderOpportunities and surrender. It seems to be the theme for this Summer of 2011. Opportunities to travel, to meet new people, to explore opportunities and most importantly to see the lesson in every situation.
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<br />That's become my definition of surrender- to see the lesson I need to learn in every circumstance I find myself in. What can I learn from this? What is Krsna trying to teach me? What unwanted qualities are holding me back from allowing me to embrace Krsna's plan for me?
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<br />Although it's so easy to compare and bemoan that Krsna may "appear" to be more merciful to others, it's actually the coward's way out. It's another ploy on the part of my fickle mind to shift responsibility and play the blame game. But what's the use?
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<br />Instead of feeling a sense of satisfaction, I feel a loss of control and instead of exercising the free will that Krsna has given me, I act like an ungrateful fool by trying to toss it back into His face.
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<br />I forget I have a choice. That free will can be spent in understanding that in spite of the choices I make, Krsna is so merciful that He is trying to take me back to Him. Whatever lessons, whatever successes and whatever failures, He is beside me. He is the one person who will never give up on me and will always be there to encourage me.
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<br />Little by little, I get glimpses of that encouragement when I step back and take stalk of what Krsna is trying to teach me. Although at times it can be exhausting, and definitely battering to my false ego, there is also a refreshing sense of freedom.
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<br />That freedom frees me from the false illusions that I have about myself and in turn presents opportunities that may have never come otherwise. It makes complete sense doesn't it? Only when we let go of those things that are holding us back can we be open to whatever will help us to move forward.
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<br />Although completely logical, it can also be hard to apply practically. That is why I'm so grateful to all my mentors, friends, parents and well-wishers who act as my role models in always seeking to find Krsna in all aspects of their lives. Thank you for giving me the inspiration and encouragement to follow in your footsteps.
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06092608110198167323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5223128820732936292.post-15966875287489984362011-07-07T16:38:00.000-04:002011-07-07T20:42:18.856-04:00Rediscovering the Magic of Krsna Consciousness All Over AgainAs an aspiring bhakti practitioner, I'm well aware of how easy it is to start seeing everything I do in my day to day life as routine. Chanting, deity worship, reading, associating with devotees- all of it can become mundane if we don't go deeper than the superficial coverings. Sometimes we may feel that Krsna consciousness has lost the "freshness" and have to seek ways to rediscover that feeling.<br /><br />Recently, I was fortunate to go on a retreat facilitated by HH Devamrta Swami and HG Bada Hari prabhu. The retreat was for newcomers offering an escape from the rigamaroles of everyday material life and an opportunity to discover the great jewels bhakti has to offer in the forms of kirtan, prasadam and deep devotion-centric discussions.<br /><br />Upon hearing about the retreat, I immediately wanted to invite three people. Two of them were ladies I had distributed books to and had developed friendships with. The other was a student who regularly attends the Bhakti Yoga Club at the University of Ottawa. <br /><br />Upon inviting Marcelle and Geoff, both immediately said yes. Unfortunately, Nadia, whom I have the great honour of regularly reading the Gita with, was unable to make it. <br /><br />The weekend of the retreat came upon us and I was both trepedatious and excited. The potential for this trip being a life transforming journey for both these individuals was unbelievable. How many relative newcomers to Krsna consciousness get an opportunity to get one-one time with devotees of the highest caliber such as HH Devamrta Swami and HG Bada Hari prabhu for two and a half days? Not only that, but to have the association of like-minded individuals with a genuine thirst to dive deeper in bhakti can be rare.<br /><br />Although I was happily engaged either in kirtan or cooking for most of the retreat, two moments stand out for me during those two and a half days. Those moments allowed me to fall in love with Krsna consciousness all over again. One morning, over half the participants got up early out of their own volition and chanted japa. The main room where the programs were being held became completely surcharged with the vibration of the holy name. In that space, I'll never forget looking over the participants, and in particular Geoff and seeing him with eyes closed, a look of determination on his face chanting the holy names of Krsna.<br /><br />The second moment was during the final kirtan. HH Devamrta Swami simply took us out of the material world with his kirtan. Every single participant, was dancing. It was as though no one had a say in the matter! Everyone had to dance. After dancing and dancing and dancing, finally the kirtan came to conclusion and sitting down everyone sang in unison, hands outstretched and a look of complete bliss on their faces.<br /><br />That is what Krsna consciousness is all about. Feeling a sense of connection to the holy names and the devotees. Although I may have passed along the message and invited both Geoff and Marcelle to come, they gave me the greatest gift during this retreat. 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